Saturday, February 11, 2006


I got 3 hours of sleep last night. Why? Because I started taking Lexapro yesterday. I took it way too late in the day (around 4:30), and it kept me up all night. This happened when I started taking Celexa a few years ago. I'll start taking it in the morning, and the situation should resolve itself.

I finally decided to go back on antidepressants because I can't change anything that is bothering me about my life until either DH or I leaves grad school. I am not ready to quit (although I am always wishing that I had never started).

We will see how the meds go. Celexa worked great, except for gaining 10 lbs and losing my libido. Lexapro is just another form of Celexa, so I am wary of these side effects again, and will not hesitate to ask the psychiatrist to put me on something else if either of these side effects show up.

Started my project for the Knitting Olympics last night. I frogged it this morning, and I'm starting over, though. I'm doing the Midwest Moonlight scarf from Scarf Style in KnitPicks Elegance. I think the pattern as stated is too wide, given this yarn. So I'm making it narrower.


Psycgirl said...

Wow that comment about not being able to change anything about your life until you leave grad school hit me hard. That's something I'm either refusing to acknowledge, don't believe in, or am in denial about, but I know exactly what you feel like - all the misery in my life is attributable to grad school. I hope the antidepressants help.

orangepaas said...

I feel the same way about grad school, and it's a real struggle to "bloom where you're planted" and figure out how to find positive things among the misery (this idea, courtesy of my counselor). Yes, we're all here in grad school, but we wouldn't be here if we weren't *meant* to learn something. Hopefully that helps your outlook. It helps mine (sometimes).

Good luck with the meds, I hope the side effects don't hit you as hard this time around.

feminaformosa said...

I have a real history of making radical changes when I am unhappy. This just wasn't working for me! It's part of the reason I ended up in grad school- as part of a major change effort. This is a big part of the reason why I'm reluctant to quit.

CBear said...

Sweetie - I hope the meds help you out. I am suffering from depression because Iowa is so miserable and cold and lonely ---

Post pics of the Olympic project when you can. I haven't gotten very far at all!